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I've made a decision.

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 23, 2012, 1:01 AM



Okay. I've officially decided that I will go through with restarting dA. But, I'm not going to be creating a new account. I don't feel that's necessary and I've already come so far on this account. You guys all have shown me this and thank you for that! Not to mention this premium would be rotting. Another point you guys made was I can't perfect my art. That's impossible. All I've gotta do is keep trying and never give up. Everyone improves, but it takes time. I can't force it. Not only did you guys point this out but I think my forever broken pinky kinda resembles that, in a way. It's forever broken because I chose drawing over healing. Er.. wait, I don't even.. ok that has no relation to this moral rofl. shhsh i have my own point-of-vieWS!!1
ON TOPIC AGAIN OK, so my way of restarting is basically just... well, starting fresh. And I mean even my characters. I'm going to be deleting all but 2 at most. The one(s) I don't delete will be getting a huge make-over. I honestly feel very comfortable about this, for some reason. I feel though as if I'm fresh and clean if I do this. All of my characters have had some sort of effect on me in my life outside the computer and it'll be so great to release it all. I'll change my username for hopefully the last time, redo my page, practice drawing, design new characters, find new fandoms (if I even feel like I want one..), delete embarrassing drawings...
Yeah, you get the idea.
I wanna thank all of you who commented on my journal supporting me and encouraging me and lifting me up. I was expecting a bunch of hate. Honestly, I was. I know a lot of people hate vents out there and I knew people would be upset over my deletion of Flash. But.. I'm thankful for those who encouraged it for my happiness rather than discouraged it for their own selfish reasons. Flash was a big pain in my, excuse the language, assssssss, and its so good to get that heavy weight off my shoulder.
Seriously, you guys are THE best. Honestly, you're all true friends. I can't thank you enough. I swear, you're the reason that I keep going everyday. I'd lose it if I didn't have any of you. It's been a very hard time for me and just aaghh thanks.~~
And I know people have it worse than me. Even some of you. And I'm always here if y'wanna talk, just as you are for me.


Love y'alllsss, I'll probably get around to redoing my dA soon.
Because I've been on the computer more lately...
yep ewe... neopets.


- Oreo, CJ, whatever the heck you fkn call me anymore now ;w;;


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One touch and I was a believer,
every kiss, it gets a little sweeter. ♥

- Niall Horan
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:iconmusicwolfy333:
MusicWolfy333 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm so so so so so so so so so so so happy you feel better!
Is Mr. Potato Head gonna stick around? Tis ok if you delete him, you do what's best for you luffy~!
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SilverNGoldWings Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I'm glad you'll feel beer afer this
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Musiusi Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Student General Artist
Glad you feel better buddy ^^
Good luck! :D
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MasterMitosi Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Have fun.
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Pink-Sugar-Tea Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
    Don't worry Oreo; I had to do the same thing. Just start out fresh.(: A brand new start is all you need~
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InterstellarDream Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So so happy you're feeling just fine! <333 Hope you can find a way to reset things and make a new beginning! I believe in you, Courty!
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Statie Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist
Glad your feeling much much better <3

Gah, your pinkyD: I'm sorry.
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SamdraX-elle Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ZOMG YOU'RE FEELING ALL BETTER~ :glomp:
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NeguraRos Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Student General Artist
man I forgot to reply to the last journal whoops haha

Anyways

Do whatever you feel is gonna help. If you wanna start over, it's fine, I'll support ya buddy!

And erryone be right. You can't just ridicule your art and say that you're gonna try and improve immediately "OMG NOT CoMInG BACk TILL I DO!!1!" It's a time process.

But yeah. Luva ya man. <33

is liam one of the remaining charas?
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Sockune Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
KAY DOOD DO WHAT YOU THINK IS BEST
FEEL HE HECK BETTERS KAY?
LOVE, DIS GUY <3
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Sparkz8D Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Yayayayayayayay Oreo's feelin' betteeeer <3<3<3<3<3 Yaaaaay! I'm sure your "new life" will be so frickin' kawaaaaiiiiiiiiii. ;DD I'm going to the fabric store for Black Friday. Like, I'm sure it'll be suuuper crowded! Anyway, glad yo feelin' betteeeer!
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SlyxCarmelitaFan14 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Student
It's okay... Flash had a good run.. If you needa delete him then go ahead.. As long as you're happy and not stressed then that's fine with me .. Besides like some people say "if you love something , set it free ... If it comes back to you it's yours.. But if it doesn't , then it was never meant to be " loliknowthatmadenosense .... But the point is I just want you to be happy .. And haters are gon hate... But just keep your spirits up and ignore em ..
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megashadowmew Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
ok, i downloaded almost all of your awesome imgaes so i can love them forever even though you are deleting them! cuz i REFUSE to see flash go!!!! anywho, i hope whatever you do, you are happy and not stressed! keep up the good work and think positive! ^^
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Jordyyyyy Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Student
I'm glad that you're going to be okay..even though I'm sad to see Flash go, if it makes you feel better, then go right ahead. ;w; I'd still like you to keep Liam, because I love Liam........butyoudon'thaveto. ;o; ANYWAYYYY. I can't wait to see what your page will be like after you fix it, and stuff. ;u;

Oh, and you should add me on neopets. ewe;;

LUFF YOU, GIRLLYYY. <3
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magic-creative-mind Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
i'm glad this makes you happy. have fun with your "new life" and don't let no one stop you
keep your head up and spirits high
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coreooo Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks very much again <3
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magic-creative-mind Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
your very welcome :heart:
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DoctorSandwich Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
iread this most but i kind of skimed last paragraF bECaUSE iM SO TIRED
oK CoOL YOu shOULD messGE ME bEFORE i fALL asLEPP lol everythings blurry help
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coreooo Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
o
ok thats fiNE

wHAIT WHATS WRONG BABy ?!11/
please don'T FALL ASLe
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DoctorSandwich Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
o ok

iM JUST REALLY TIRED I WOKE UP AT 12PM WELL I WAS AWOKEN ACTUALLY >:I
AND I DID ABSOLUTLEY NOTHING BUT EAT TODAY AND COMPUTER LOL WHY AM I SO TIRED
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coreooo Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
lol thatS SO FUNNY MAN
seriously what did u eat i gotta no this is just wow
WELL HERES MY STORY
MY FEET ARE FOCKIN KILLING ME CUZ I WAS WALKED THE SHIZ OUTTA THEM AT WALMART FOR BLACK FRIDAy!<33333
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DoctorSandwich Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
i aTE WAter chOCOLATE MILK APPLEJUICE ICECREAM
a little thing of turkey and mashed potatoes i dont rly eat

lOL WOAH i wENT LAST YEAR buT IDK ItS NOT EXCITING UNLESS YOU GO WITH A FRIEND AND I WENT WITH MY DaD AND HIS GF SO UGH WO
walHELL??
u weNT TO WALLHELL????

i mean did u hav a good time bby?
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coreooo Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AFFAF WOW THAT SOUNDS SO DELICIOS BUt its much better if u blend it js man
turkey
u ate a turkey THATS CANNIBALISM

I WENT TO WALLHELL BABy
likE IT WAS PRETTY PACKED AND
no i had an awful time 8C
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DoctorSandwich Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
omG WAT NO I DIDNT MEAN TO SANDWICH DIDNT KSLADKA;LDSD nOSRUD WJSALKDF
WSDKLADHLSIKDAHASILDKSHAEJWSA;JFLDKFJAS;LDJSALDKJS

aWW SEE DONT GO 2 WALLHELL ITS P/ GRODY THEYRE
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coreooo Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HEY THIS IS A MONTH OLD OMFG
cANNIBLE

oYEAH WHAT ARE YO GONNA DO AB OUT IT?!?1
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